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i hate how this year is turning out to be.
i went to go watch idea's christmas show today
and just watching them made me want to cry.
I miss them , all of it . i never realized how much you guys
meant to me, my family, my friends, and everything we would
all do for each other. The laughs, the fights, and the arguements.
we were all so close, and now knowing that im not apart of that
makes me feel weird. its like something is missing my life.
i wish i back , i wish this wasnt like this .
i cant wait till next year when i come , hopefully /;

I guess,

I complain too much .
If its not one thing, its another. im never happy with anything .
dont you hate it when people point out the truth ?
& i hate when i regret things that ive said ,
but the past is past , & i cant do anything to do about it ./;
its not likee theyy care but whatever.
i love alyssa, she makes things alot better<3
& Darren , dont know what id do without him .

besides thatt, todaay was an okay dayy , better than yesterday though.
sometimes i really love taking the bus , its sooo loud .
and the bus driver never says anythingg haa.

well thats all for noww,
mmkayss , byeee .